Beach Memories

Pain, but no sword in my back
No thorns of roses in my hand
On my shoulders a big sack
A sack full of shells and sand
I can’t put it down anywhere
This bag full of sweet memory
Try hard to treasure it and care
But it fills me with ache and ire
Sweet old times near the beach
The old shells, they break
Wet feet dry and they teach
That old times can now be fake!

A new start

I watched a piece of leaf
That’s torn apart in the winter;
Pushed by time to distant places
To places barren, with no shelter.
It’s made to face bad weather,
It’s not in the place it’s supposed to be,
Or is it where it was destined?
On the roof top, beside the chimney.

I watched it see the world from there,
Top view, as it is called;
Now, it had a better view than on the tree
From where the winds had it hauled.
Though the chimney protected -
From the winds of east, the piece,
It was not long before the snow storm
Put it on the ground with ease.

Next sunny morning, I see, with glee
Right on the spot where the leaf-piece fell,
A sapling, green, small and shiny
Sprouted through the melting snow, so tiny,
And I wonder if the leaf torn apart
Gave this life a new start!

I Hate My Enemy

Yes, I hate, I hate, and I really do
More than anyone can possibly do
I hate, I hate so much and more
Deep as ocean, extended as shore
I keep saying this to myself, all the time
But what's wrong with this heart of mine?
Why can't it understand what my minds says
Mind screams, I hate to even see the face
My heart, why can't it agree?
It is still fervent to see
See the person who had it bleed
To my heart, I preach and plead -
"Cant you forget and move on,
That person is dead and gone"
My heart, I wish I could throw away
At least that would stop it say -
"I miss, I adore, I love, and I care
Though I have wounds, cuts and tears"
To my heart I don't want to yield
Have to cover it with an obdurate shield
I have to live like this and with this I have to die
Keep telling myself that I hate, yes, it's a lie
Everyone have to face this, it's not just me
It happens if you love your enemy

Hand To Hold

When the stars shine bright

And moon is glowing too

We can find our way through

But when it's a cloudy night

With no moon light

You'll need me and I'll need you

We can live life all on our own

Don't have to give or to share

Do whatever we think is fair

But when life seems torn

And your heart feels thrown

You'll feel the need for love and care

Many may praise you high

You always want people who extol

But they'll stab you when you loll

You need some to be frank and not lie

To pull you back to earth from sky

Only they will pick you up from a fall

You can never sail in life alone

Everyone needs a pillar of love

To respect your heart and not shove

Laugh with you and in grief to mourn

Someone you can call your own

And a hand to hold when up above

Perception

A look into those enchanting eyes; Lost in it, I found no return

Heart beats seem to have stopped as those eyes glowed in rays of Sun

I search for you during lonely nights

Only to find, in my mind, your eyes; two twinkling lights

You crept into my life and life transformed

Felt a support when it snowed and stormed

I imagined sailing with u all through

Hoped this dream would turn true

But you termed this as a passing moment

Leaving my heart to grieve and torment

You saw friendship, but love was my perception

I called you life while you named it co-incidence and a situation

My soul needs to accept this, but it kills

Writing this as my pain flows down through my heart and spills

A Rainy Thought

To feel the cold wind caress

I moved the curtains, opened the pane

Although strong, they gently stroked my face

To let me know the onset of rain.

I, could smell the moist mud,

See dark clouds filling the sky;

Amid the clouds the crimson sun;

Trees swaying and birds fly.

A puppy strolling on the street

Ran to take refuge under the tree,

I noticed tiny water droplets descend

Yes, it’s heaven’s happiness spree!

Though it was just a drizzle

I saw the grass gleam,

On my nose, I felt a tickle

Against the window, as I lean

I ran to the door and flung it open,

Ran to street, looked above to see

With great joy, I looked around too

To find no one around, it was just me

Suddenly, the rain started to pour

And the sky began to roar

I ran back home, to the window again

Now, I stand here to watch the rain

And some thoughts with none to share

“Is it the rain or life that’s unfair?”

A long way to go

I have to go a long way from where I stand

Beyond the seven seas into an unknown land

Everything there is flowery with shine

Everything around is faultless and fine

But unexpressed feelings, would anyone understand?

I have to fly far away, into a distant place

Won't meet anyone with a familiar face

Modern people, fresh ideas, a sweet melody

A new life to start with new everybody

But will this change give me peace and solace?

A truck load of anxiousness, fear and worry

I will conceal them all, will let go, will just bury

Life moves on, I need to reform

I can go places and face any storm

Need my love with me and just enough baggage to carry

Hope

No spark in the eye
No smile on the face
Gazing at the cloudy sky
In an unfamiliar place

The fragrance of flowers
The odor of rain
Brings no feeling of joy
But soaks my spirit in pain

Don’t know how far and long
From home I must be apart
In search of the fragments
Of my shattered heart

The pieces are numerous
They are fragile and small
Each one is so distant
Don’t know if I’ll find them all

Hope is all that’s left in me
Hope is the guiding light
Hope I can fix my injured heart
And make my dark world bright